The lectionary readings for this coming Sunday are among my favorite
passages of Scripture. The passages are
familiar, including Ezekiel in the valley of dry bones and Jesus giving new life to
Lazarus. I know especially
that the stories of Martha, Mary, and Lazarus come before me at the times they
do to remind me of priorities. Over the
years, I’ve come to realize just how much like the biblical Martha I am. I know we share many of the same personality
traits.
Back
in 1995, we were just beginning to introduce drama into worship at Shady
Grove. That’s when we were still a small
church and didn’t have many potential participants to choose from - those
brave enough to try this new adventure.
That year, we planned big! A
local man, known for his portrayals of Jesus, was asked to be with us for all
the Sundays of Lent and for Holy Week services.
There were to be dramatic presentations of the Gospel readings each
week. The account of the raising of
Lazarus was one of the presentations. I
was Martha; Mary and Lazarus were played by a young couple in the church, who
by the way were expecting their first child.
Like with so many church dramas, that adds a whole new twist to the
Scripture – a pregnant Mary...not the mother of Jesus. Several
years later we were asked to be Mary and Martha again, this time in the account
from later in John’s Gospel of Mary anointing Jesus’ feet with perfume. Mary was pregnant again – so at least we were
consistent.
We
had practiced and practiced the story.
Mary and I were to enter, crying over the death of our brother. Lazarus was inside a make-shift tomb. When we took our places and Jesus came toward
us, I was to move to him, grab him by the arms, and say that powerful line, “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would
not have died.” I was overly concerned with the details –
especially how to make myself cry before coming in. On the final practice, I was trying my best
to do everything perfectly. And here I
am, running up to the man who to me looked and acted exactly like what I see
Jesus being like – a gentle spirit full of compassion with a radiant face –
reaching out to comfort his grieving friend – and as lift my eyes and begin to
speak, Patrick blurts out, “You’ve got the most
beautiful blue eyes!” That took all of the drama right out of the
story. Now, whenever I read the story, I
see Jesus talking about Martha’s eyes before acknowledging her grief and
anger. But that’s what I needed at that
moment. I was too caught up in the
details – the need to make the tears flow, to keep the headpiece on, and say
the lines at the right time. The details
had become more important than the message.
Just like Martha in the biblical story…in all the stories we know about Martha, Mary
and Lazarus.
I have came to
see more and more of myself in Martha.
There was her obsession with order – everything had to be perfect in the
house in order to show her hospitality.
There was always something to do – preserving tradition, making a stable
home, feeling like she had to do it all herself and being upset with Mary when
she didn’t help and went to listen to Jesus.
Being thrown into “stress overdrive” preparing for Jesus’ visit with all
the mundane tasks that she thought had to be done. Feeling the need to be the one to handle all
the details, to be responsible, even down to making sure Jesus knew that there
would be a foul odor if the tomb was open.
Can you see her wanting to believe that Lazarus could be brought back to
life, wanting more time with him, wanting to know Jesus would make everything
right, but being concerned over the smell?
Oh, do I see myself in this description.
Do you?
Here at the end of another season of lent, I
see Martha all through my life again. I see
those personality traits coming out stronger and stronger. I’m getting closer to the valley of the dry
bones. I need these stories again this week
to bring my perspective back in line. Those
personality traits that I share with the “other Martha” have come out in full
force. Maybe they have for you,
too. It’s at those times, I have to
remind myself that God is the one in control. That God will work according to
God’s time, not mine, and according to God’s desires, not my attempts and wishes
to do it my way. Jesus
taught Martha the importance of taking time for reflection and prayer, for
being with those you love and enjoying the time you have together, for focusing
on God’s priorities. The lesson for
Martha was that there will always be mundane tasks necessary for living and
working in this world. That’s life. There will always be things that don’t go
according to our plans. That’s
life. But of what value is life if there
is no meaning.
In
this final week of Lent, I need to be stopped, to bring things back into perspective. Like how Jesus stops Martha and the people of
Bethany by showing them that not only could he heal the sick, which they had no
problem believing that he could do, but that he could also raise the dead. Jesus not only revived Lazarus but Martha and
Mary and all the people gathered that day.
We, too, get stuck in the tomb. We get lost in the details of life,
obsessed with the busyness. We travel to
the valley of dry bones where Ezekiel went, and see as Ezekiel saw, as all of
Israel saw, only dry old bones. We
believe in the mighty power of God and in Jesus, but we still lose our
perspective. Let us remember in these final days of Lent to give thanks that
God is not yet done with us, that we have the opportunity each and every minute
of every day to be revived – to see the light of a new day, a new way, a new
perspective.
Love it!! What great memories. I was honored to be your sister, Mary; both times!! I never felt like you were worried about a thing, you are always such a professional. For me, I can't hear that story without thinking of Patrick's eyes as he lifted Mary's head (mine) to look into her eyes...it was like seeing into the very eyes of Jesus at that moment, seeing the very story live before me if only for a split second. Very powerful and one of the greatest experiences of my life! Amazing what drama does not only for the observer but for the portrayer...much like mission work, rewards on both sides.
ReplyDeleteI loved reading your blog entry, Martha. It brings back such wonderful memories for me. I think this was the one week I had off from drama's that entire dramatic Lenten series. Prior to your week as Martha with Mary (Terry) and Lazarus (Jerry), I was the Man Born Blind. In preparation for the drama. Patrick (Jesus) took me out one evening on the front steps of the church (now the Chapel) he asked me to close my eyes to represent the darkness the Man Born Blind experienced, he prayed with me and then he mixed dirt from the grounds of the church with his saliva and he spread the paste he made over my eyes. He told me to go wash and he disappeared. It was one of the most spirit filled, eye opening experiences of my life. Then your drama week came and I remember during rehearsal Patrick telling you how beautiful your eyes were. He was right! They are!! Then your performance came and as soon as you warned Jesus of the stink, with your southern VA accent, I just couldn't contain myself. I got tickled and snorted. Awesome memories!!
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